Rookie Blue

So this morning I was catching up on my summer addiction, Rookie Blue. I had missed the last 2 weeks but thankfully DVR'd them. This summer I liked some of the new characters and story lines. I have always been a fan of Andy and Sam, but I do like Marlo, Sam's new girlfriend. A few episodes before the Aug 1, episode we learned one of the characters was taking Bipolar meds....my first guess was Chloe, based on all the stereotypes she was it. All over the place, no concentration on one thing, up down moods, a little OCD and the list goes on and on. That same episode we found out with Marlo! Color me shocked. And she told Andy, of all people. She hadn't told anyone she worked with, not even Sam, because she was scared people would look at her differently, treat her differently etc. The same fears everyone has when they have a mental health problem.
That episode finished with Andy using the trusty Google doctor to find a website to read about it. I didn't get to finish that episode but that was an indication already that things had changed. Anyways, as I was watching an episode this morning it showed Marlo in her psyc's office. And she made a good point. She said, I feel happy and have energy, you think I'm manic, I feel tired you think I'm depressed. And in a way she's right. It's like you have to look neutral all the time otherwise people wonder if you're going to go off your rocker. I even get it from Jonathan. On a day where I am grumpy or short tempered he asks if I took my medication. I know he means well, I am forgetful and forget to take my medication a lot, even though I have my week ready in a little pill container, and he just wants to make sure I took it. He's not saying that he think I am losing it, just making sure that I am not being like that because I didn't take my medication. But still it makes a person wonder if someone is always analyzing you and your moods. That think that at any minute you are going to lose it. I'm glad that we can laugh about it though, and that I have the support that I need, not everyone has that so in the end it makes me lucky.