Is it me....?

Sometimes I have these days where I am just down. And I can never tell if its just one of those days where things are bothering me, of its just my bipolar going, Hey! Today feels like a great day to screw with your head a little.
I am having a day where I just want to be in bed and cry. I have a bad cold, my throat feels like it is on fire. I feel like the forgotten child at work. I work in a building away from the rest of my team, in a little office all on my own. Sometimes I wonder if they would even notice if I didn't come in sometime. I loaned a bottle of Purell to my boss last week and it got lost, and tried to give me a bottle of an off brand of hand sanitizer that was half empty, when my bottle was brand new. I'm tired, and I feel unappreciated and I just want to go and cry.
Today is not a good day.

My biggest fear

My biggest fear is losing my boys, all because I am bipolar. I am always terrified that someone will say, you have bipolar, which means we don't know what you will do in the future, therefore, because you could possibly go crazy, we are taking them from you. Up until now I knew that this rarely happened. Well in Britain it did happen. An Italian woman who was in Essex county 15 months ago, was forced by the courts to have a c-section and then they gave her baby up for adoption despite her pleas to raise her daughter. In court the judge even said 'If in later life she reads this judgement, as she may well do, I hope that she will appreciate that her mother in particular loved her and wished for her to return to live with her and to bring her up.It is not the mother's fault, nor the child's, that it was not possible and that a predictable home could only be secured by way of adoption.' All because the woman was bipolar. I guess in this world, it is still possible, in a free world and developed country, to have something like this happen to you. A sad but true fact.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2517944/Judge-Roderick-Newtons-remarkable-message-baby-girl.html